Two days ago, I decided to give Mia eggs with avocados since she loves avocados. Of course she ate it all and it was amazing to see her eat her eggs again. She had no issues eating eggs at six months or seven months.
Once we hit eight months, she would literally throw up the eggs she would eat. I decided to take a break from it and try again at nine months. The same thing happened so I took another break from eggs. Thinking now that she is ten months, I thought I would try again and of course she ate it all with no issues (because of the avocados).
As the day went on, she was definitely not acting like herself. Finally, she threw up everything she ate and usually after throwing up she feels much better. In this case, she was still out of it. I decided it was finally time to go to the pediatrician to see what he thinks.
After hearing everything I had to say, he said that we should hold off on eggs until 18 months. From there, as I was driving home, I noticed Mia was sleeping so I decided to get a Starbucks. This way, she could sleep a little longer.
During the drive, my “mom guilt” started coming out and I couldn’t stop it. All I could keep thinking about was…
How could you do this to your child? You know she usually throws up when eating eggs, so why would you let her eat it all, and so on as we got home.
There was literally no way for me to stop the “mom guilt” until Mia started acting like her happy self. She would look at me and just smile, and that smile helped me ease the “mom guilt.” I literally felt like I could put that “mom guilt” back in the jar where it belongs!!! I just hope it doesn’t come out any time soon!!!
I can honestly say we choose our emotions and we decide how we want our days to be. If you want to be sad, your day will be a sad one. If you choose to be happy, you will have a happy day! If you know me, you know I always choose to stay happy. At the same time, some days, it really is hard to be happy because I’m human. I feel like there are some days where I let my emotions get the best of me like two days ago!!!
I usually do well with mom guilt, but today was a day where I just let it eat me up alive. Well, until, Mia decided to start smiling at me. Who knows, maybe she felt like her mom was being off and wanted me to know that she was okay.
It was at that moment, I put that “mom guilt” back in the jar where it belongs! I had to tell myself that I am doing the best I can, and will continue to try to be the best mom I can be for my baby girl.
If there is anything I can tell a fellow first time parent, it is that it is okay to feel the guilt. This means that you truly care about wanting to be the best parent to your child. If you didn’t care then I would say there is a problem!
So the next time the guilt slowly creeps on you, remember, you are definitely doing everything in your powers to be the best parent you can be. Don’t let the guilt eat you up like I let it!!! Definitely don’t let the guilt ruin your day because you can choose to be happy!!! Yes, some days, it may be hard but believe me you are stronger than you think!!!-XOXO-
